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[Aug. 1st, 2004|09:41 pm] |
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| | Pulangkan // Misha Omar & Ezad | ] |
see la i forgot to say that last Fri was MrsAw's last day in school.. she's quitting to be a full-time mum. yeahh.. us students have a lot of teachers, but her daughters only have one mum.. so she's devoting herself to them instead of us. =)
wasted our effort to spread the word to ask every ex-2e3ian to stay and say goodbye to her. (like we did last year to MrsGabriel) only a few turned up. but i dont care. i wanna say goodbye. well yeah. she cried and i cried. the rest didnt cry okay.. i dont know.. i just cant stand it.
i kept thinking about all the shit she had to go through just because of us. she cried twice in class, all because of us. she went through a lot of stress. until she had difficulty conceiving. i can still remember all those talks she gave us-YingLin, Jirah and me- coz we are the leaders of the class. we had so much trouble.. one problem after the next. i remember i was stressed out too.. until i gave up and just neglect my v-chairman responsibilities, telling myself that if all of them dont care, why the freak in hell should i care??
hahah yeah.. its all in this DJ. all written. and Jirah.. yerps. stressed out too.. but for me, i think being the v-chairman of 1e3'02 was much more stressful. i think it's because MrsGabriel put the hell alot of pressure on me. yes.. i can still remember.. one little bit of mistake i made, and she made sure i pay for it. throwing markers at me, making me sweep during lessons, wipe the VCR, calling me A FOOL like, more than 5 times.. sheesh. and yelling at me on how on earth i was nominated to be a prefect, saying that i'm an irresponsible fool and that she doesnt know what the class sees in me. all that while i was picking up books on the floor. and yeah, nudging my temple with her finger, while me and Adrianni clean the wall in front of everyone.
oh god.. i remember how depressed i was.. but last year when we said goodbye to her, all of us cried, including me. i know i will miss her, no matter what she did or say to me.
i'm thankful to MrsAw. for not pressurising me the way MrsGabriel did. for helping me out with all the stuff.
haiz.. i'm actually crying.. hahahahha. oh yeah, yesterday night i cant sleep coz i was thinking of OBS. yes.. still cant forget it okay. the meals together, the dorm, the kayaking, the rock-climbing, the singing, the quarry-dipping, the hiking.. everything. haiz. and the sleepless night when at last, i slept with the others outside under the sky.. and of course, HiapLuh.. ahahahahahah.
and i looked through my photo album today. Sec1 at East Coast.. as Supermen at Zany Parade.. National Day 2003- malay culture Dikir, we won. Racial Harmony 2003. hheheheehhe. feel like scanning them.
okaylar.. no mood to study SS or do schoolwork.
p.s. i'm still pining for you, you know. i cant get you out of my mind, unfortunately.. |
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